Existence (2016)

Track List:

  1. The End is the Beginning
  2. The Trade
  3. You Don’t Exist
  4. Circle of Ice
  5. Looking Outside
  6. Atonement
  7. Pass My Eye
  8. Stay With Me
  9. Pass Me By
  10. Locked Inside
  11. Beyond it All
  12. Dead Girl Walking
  13. Firing Line

A dark concept about life, death, denial, and regrets. Lines between fantasy and reality are blurred which puts prisoner 0164 on the firing line! What will become of her when she passes through the Golden Gate? (No, not the bridge in San Francisco) Banished from existence? Shattered into dust? Will she live on in eternity? In a harbor of loving trust???

2014 / 2015: Deaths in the family! When you lose your parents and other family members, it really forces you to look at life quite differently! Also in 2014 I fell into a spell losing 3 months of my life in the process! When I woke up I found that I had been put under by an evil queen who had tried unsuccessfully to make me do her bidding (no I’m not metaphorically referring to a relationship). In order to get revenge I took her digital effigy and made her my prisoner.

For a whole year I agonized over what I should do with her, knowing in the end there would only ever be one suitable outcome: Death on the firing line! Finally in December of 2015, I had the guards march her down the long dark hall out into the cold light of day. With finger above the delete key, I had a flash of existential visions with just a hint of remorse… DON’T LOOK BACK! FIRE FIRE FIRE!!!

With the death of prisoner 0164 (yes the number is a clue) I finally feel like the scales are once again in balance, and I can get on with my life. Only one problem: I see her face everywhere that I look in the digisphere! NO I DON’T because she doesn’t exist! Don’t look at the thumbnail!!! YOU DON’T EXIST! You don’t exist to me at all! You’re just a stain upon the wall!

released October 31, 2016